Today was another day without you. I miss you and I know you miss me just as much. Getting comfortable in bed without you is impossible. I miss your small petite frame and how easy to hold you are. I can’t sleep. I can’t focus. I can’t speak. I can only think about how you wiped those tears from my eyes. I tried so hard not to shed a tear. I know you tried too but we both failed. You’re kind of essential to my well being. I can’t properly function without you. The air to my lungs. The blood to my veins. And the heart to pull it all together. So far my entire family knows of you. They all know that im going to marry you. They don’t dare to come back with a rebuttal. They know I would win that fight any day. My phone slid and hit my hand…. I thought it was you pulling my hand to guide me wherever you saw fit. When I looked around and didn’t see you, a tear slid down my cheek with grace. I tried my hardest not to break down and I didn’t. I didn’t because you told me not to. I’m writing this on the night of my cousins engagement. I cried when I saw them put the jewelry on her to signify that she was now theirs. It made me think of you. I’ll end this with an I love you….
Lead me
I’ve decided this now. I’ve decided that I’d write something every night. It seems to be the only way to vent my anger and my sorrow. I don’t know why we said bye the way we did. We parted ways in the house and you didn’t walk me out. That hallway was the last I saw of you and I knew it would be for a while. The corridor haunts my mind now. My desire to be with you burns… And the flames will eventually destroy me. I miss those eyes… Those beautiful blue eyes. To be honest, your eyes never scared me. In fact they make my heart race when I stare into them….. I miss you and even though I should be the leader of the relationship. Sometimes I’d like you to lead me. Sometimes I don’t always know the right thing. So lead me.
